Do not be afraid

I received a call back from the cardiologist the other day. It was not the news that I was hoping for. He doesn't think that IV therapy for Anna will be beneficial. Although I was kind of expecting this response, it's still hard to hear. For me, this was an avenue that I thought might provide Anna a sense of relief. It feels like we are back at square one. When I was speaking with the Doctor on the phone, he was very nice about it all, and very honest. I was explaining how ill Anna had been and how we are frustrated because we don't know what to do for her. Basically, he told us we have a long journey ahead of us and unfortunately, the medical community does not know enough to provide us with any advice. Ahhhh.....so frustrating!!!
On a positive note though, Anna has been feeling pretty good these past few days! She's actually made it to school every day this week!! It's so strange how our outlook on things have changed. Before, we were upset if our child was sick for a few days, now we are celebrating when she's feeling well for a few days.
If you have read some of my previous posts, you may have read that I was hoping for a miracle for April because of soccer tryouts. The miracle hasn't happened yet. Today is the first tryout. So hard. On the way home from school today, Anna mentioned it to me. I didn't bring it up because I know it's a very sensitive subject for her. She wants so badly to be out there with her team. I hate how this illness has taken that away from her. I did talk to the head of the soccer organization and he told me that Anna will have a spot on the rep team but that still doesn't mean she will be able to play. We now have until September for the miracle!
I came across a beautiful passage the other day and I felt like it was meant just for us. It is now something that I look at every day to try and remain clear headed and positive in a situation that can get me down very quickly.
          "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be
                                           with you wherever you go"